The Moments That Take My Breathe Away

As a new momma, there are so many things I am afraid I am not doing the best at with Lil Hoff. For instance other babies his age are rolling over and Lil Hoff is not, true that he has A LOT to get rolling to roll over but he has no interest in it at all. Second example which goes hand in hand with rolling over is tummy time. He HATES tummy time, he sees it as some form of punishment and will cry until we put him back on his back. Which if he could roll over then we wouldn't have to worry about tummy time, see the two go hand in hand so all around I feel like I have let Lil Hoff down in the early 4 months of his life. Since he did not have tummy time, he won't be able to support his big head, and won't be able to sit up, won't be able to touch his toes, tie his shoes, or spell his name. He will forever be doomed because his mother didn't make him have enough tummy time as a newborn.

But on another note. There are sometimes I look at him and he literally takes my breathe away. My heart fills so full that I am overwhelmed with the joy and love that this little person has given me. That God has blessed me beyond what I was ever deserved. And this morning was one of those moments.

He is always in such a good mood in the morning and I think where did my joy go in the mornings? I dread my alarm going off cause it is another reminder of time, time to get up , time to do this, time to do that and all I want to do is look at this.

I love this picture and he isn't even smiling. But it is such a innocent picture of him and it makes me wonder what is going through his head. He is probably thinking I wish this lady would quit taking pictures of me. Or maybe even, I hate the way she dresses me, who wants to wear a funny hat? Time is going by so fast. Every month when it's time to take his monthly pictures I think how is he another month older already?

Then I look at this face and think everything is going to be ok. He will eventually roll over, he will eventually like to lay on his tummy and maybe even learn to tie his shoes. But for right now, he just needs to stay like this. His mommy loves him just the way he is.



And so does his daddy. (I think the feeling is mutual :) )